Sadness

by Ilona Rosenthal-Payne

When a heart is hurt, everything changes
the world you loved suddenly disappears,
all that's left is the shell of another new day,
into which you stumble with no direction.

When hurt holds you hostage and fear is your friend,
when the raging wind of change blows into your face
and fury burns like raging fire in the depth of your soul,
when life lost it's fragrance like the withered rose in the sun.

When memories kiss you onto your cheek at night,
and you pray to God to be strong one more time,
when the dawn of the day is light years away,
and darkness hovers over you like a ghost of the past.

That's when you need to search for the voice of your soul,
that's whispering to you softly a promise of hope,
don't stay in the darkness come into the light,
where the sun is shining and the rose is in bloom.

Let a new day begin with a sunset of joy,
give thanks to the blessings that surround you today,
take a walk with your friend, sing your children to sleep,
don't surrender to sorrow but let love lead your way.

Our Canada!

I'm proud to be living in the Great White North,
where we celebrate greatness July first, not fourth.
Where the maple leaf is our symbol of pride,
we would give our lives for the red and the white.

We are the friendliest folk you will ever know,
we like our hockey and we play in the snow.
If you have a Loonie, it's not crazy at all,
and a Toonie will get you a Tim's in the mall.

We grab our beer and go for a rip,
the bigger the wheels, the better the trip.
We take a vacation for hunting season
and help each other out for no special reason.

We love our country so free and strong,
where life is good and Winters are long.
Where we least forget and always remember,
our country's heroes on the 11th of November.

God bless Canada!

To my love on Valentine

by Ilona Rosenthal Payne

Have you ever had a beautiful dream,
where all was good and love was the scene?
And then you wake up in an old, dreary morning,
the toast is burnt and the car shows a warning.

You make it  to work, put a smile on your face,
start today's big load in your small little space.
When the door opens up and your heart skips a beat,
when he looks in your eyes and knocks you off your feet.

That day was the day, when I woke up to a dream,
where live is good, and love is the scene.
That day was the day, when I met you, My Love,
and I'm eternally thankful to the giver above.

I love you!

 

To my girl

I will keep you forever close to my heart,

even life's busy errands often keep us apart.

The memories we shared since the day we first met,

a moment of of wonder that I will never forget.

When I first took a glance at your beautiful face,

the prettiest girl and my own saving grace.

I wish to provide all your dreams and your wishes,

will always be waiting for my love and my kisses.

You're my beacon of love that lights up the night,

when my life seems dark, you're giving me light.

Your hand I will hold, I will always be near,

will always protect you everyday that I'm here.

Always know I'll be where ever you go,

I will love you much more than you'll ever know.

by Ilona Rosenthal-Payne
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Even though I didn't know you yesterday,

you gave me the hope to continue my journey,

that eventually lead me straight into your arms.

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For You

by Ilona Rosenthal-Payne

I walked life's road of cobblestone,
gradually made peace with being alone.
Hopes of love were slowly melting away,
while praying for you each and every day.

I ran the errands of life's firm demands,
when secretly dreaming of holding your hands.
Envisioning a future with you by my side,
Wishing for you with my arms open wide.

Even though I've never met you before,
I knew you already before you walked through that door.
Your changed my life in a blink of an eye,
I'm convinced you fell through a hole in the sky!

Ambrosia

by Ilona Rosenthal-Payne

Pleasing nectar of the gods,

preservation of the mortal.

Gilded by the rays of the sun

vines ascending on glory's portal.

Heaven's tears metamorphosed,

by Divinity's only heir.

Companion of the comfort-less

Jacob's ladder in a pit of despair.

Divine, comfort-giving gold,

Intoxicating pleasure.

A mocker that leads astray the wise,

but still my savoured pleasure!

Sanitas Bona

Star at night

by Ilona Rosenthal-Payne

I'm a star floating in the celestial sphere,
pacing in circles of parallel planes.
glancing at bodies orbiting near,
crystallized in a charismatic frame.

My courage rests in an opaque state,
enclosed by a shell of might,   
I entrust my judgement to navigate
across starry skies at night.

If Heaven only knew, how much Earth is missing you!

I walk along that mossy path, with a heart weighed down by sorrow.

I'm praying for the strength in me to find hope for tomorrow,

I hold my daughter's hand in mine while silently proceeding,

treading to your resting place where this mossy path is leading.

I feel a tear roll down my face, like many have been shed,

I glance upon my daughter's face and kiss her on the head.

Embraced by memories of Mother's love,

Missing her deeply, in dispute with above.

I close my eyes and take a deep breath,

thinking about this encounter with death,

How he stole in a moment our peace and delight

the derangements he left, like a thief in the night.

How life has changed in a blink of an eye,

how yesterday's laughter has now passed us by.

Like the flowers on the grave will wither away,

time will heal a bit more every day.

But the hole in my heart will never be filled,

We miss you mother, grandma and friend

The Angels will now take care of you

If Heaven only knew how much Earth is missing you!

by Ilona Rosenthal-Payne

R.I.P. Sandy

Goodbye my Daughter

by Ilona Rosenthal Payne

A beautiful bird spreading it's wings,

leaving the nest, exploring new things,

singing a song of a future of light,

living in a dream not only at night.

Still soaring through the valley of youth, 

while constantly searching for the voice of truth,

looking ahead to the horizon afar,

never missing to wish upon a star.

How I wish you were little once more,

too tiny & short to walk out that door,

but now you're a lady all ready to go,

excited to leave, your cheeks are aglow.

Goodbye my sweetheart, I will try not to cry,

reminiscing on memories from a time gone by.

I love you my daughter, I'm so proud of you,

for being who you are and for what you do.

Don't forget where you came from,

because whatever may come,

I'll give you my love and wish you the best

and will always be waiting here in the nest.

Take care of yourself Sam!

I love you!

Mom

Drip, Drop, Drip, Drop

by Ilona Rosenthal Payne

Raindrops singing me a song, the wind is blowing, 

I don't feel alone

It's a song full of hope, full of calmness and peace,

I listened with a awwww with a cat on my feet

But all of a sudden,I heard no more rain,

but the gunshots out far, my heart filled with pain.

Where is my rain? 

Why is there war?

Where is the hope that once was not far?

Why can't there be news, that countries agreed,

that for every weapon a needy they'll feed.

Where we hold hands in union, with candles in our hand,

to remember the ones that kept peace in this Land.

Let judgement be spoken, like you were on trial,

and let others be right, once in a while.

Love your neighbours even so they are rather bizarre,

Love your children, of course, because that's who you are!

Every Day

by Ilona Rosenthal Payne, 2012

Live every day like it would be your last,
leave yesterday's trouble be in the past.
Keep your eyes focused on the road that's ahead,
don't ever give up but keep walking instead.

Love every day unconditionally and true, 
because what you give out always comes back to you.
Never put your head to rest when you're mad,
but ask for forgiveness before going to bed.

Hope every day that you get one more chance,
to talk to your mother while holding her hand.
Help out your Vater without a delay,
because the one that giveth can taketh away!

And when your time comes I hope you can say:
I'd live my life the very same way.
I'd count the blessings each and every day,
not the once I received but the ones I gave away.
(added this August 2013)

Incredibly delectable Baked Apples with Peanut Butter and Coconut filling

Ingredients:

5 medium size Red Delicious Apples

8 marshmallows cut in little cubes (I used a pair of scissors dedicated for cooking)

4 tablespoons of peanut butter

3 tablespoons of shredded coconut

3 tablespoons of brown sugar

1 tablespoon of white sugar

1/4 teaspoon of cinnamon

1/4 teaspoon of ground muscat

Chocolate syrup and some shredded coconut to decorate

If we all would focus in on our very own actions with the same set of binoculars that we use to judge others,  we would all be seeing a lot clearer!